| Soho |
[Jun. 12th, 2005|11:06 am] |
| [ | Currently: |
| |  happy | ] |
I went out and bought a dog on Tuesday. Karen didn't think that it was a well thought idea, considering that we've recently had new carpetting laid downstairs. It was a spur-of-the-moment idea because I have always wanted a dog, but always ended up buying cats or birds because they are simple and easy to care for. Somehow, those pets are not quite the same as a good and loyal canine companion. You can't walk cats and you can't take birds to the park to play frisbee. I'm sure that Karen will learn to like him and I'll do my best to prevent him from staining the carpet. Soho will be a good dog. Ater all, how is it possible to deny these eyes when they're staring at your from inside a pet store cage? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 19th, 2005|09:05 am] |
| [ | Currently: |
| | content | ] |
Marriage is a very beautiful thing. Why didn't I do this sooner? |
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| It's Difficult |
[Apr. 24th, 2004|05:01 pm] |
| [ | Currently: |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | Song of choice: |
| | "Money" by Pink Floyd | ] |
Why is it difficult for me to figure out the difference between a girl who appreciates me for the person that I am, or one that is familiar with the popularity of my own name? Perhaps that is the price of being regionally famous. A back story would be duly noted; an explanation of the currect situation.
James had a gigantic dorm party for his birthday last night. He has always been an interesting campus neighbour since the inflatable, plastic doll incident which I will carefully avoid. I was invited to go and strangely, I was looking forward to the experience. James is famous for all night parties with a good amount of drinking and exceptionally loud music. Rarely, these parties have resulted in police intervention, but I was openly praying that this evening wouldn't be that case. To make a long story short, I met a wonderful girl there. Her name is Karen Meyer and she's incredible! I can easily say that if I don't see more of her soon that I will be sorely disappointed.
I may have forgotten in my excitement that the Harmonix will be playing in the next Lunchtime Recital with the following:
"Don't Stop Believing", a Journey cover.
"Money For Nothing", a Dire Straits cover.
And there has been discussion amongst us of pulling together a few barbershop classics, but that is to be speculated. For now, my mind has been mitigated. |
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| The Encouragement Of Sorts |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|07:48 pm] |
| [ | Currently: |
| |  bitchy | ] |
| [ | Song of choice: |
| | "Neighbourhood Essay" by The Black Trackers | ] |
I AM INFURIATED. There has been absolutely no reason given why the Harmonix are not performing for one of 2004's upcoming Lunchtime Recitals. I am utterly disgusted by the lack of consideration by the board members and the teaching staff. Instead, rather than hear out the entirity of our performance, they talked amongst themselves in a rude manner. I will not tolerate that. If you are willing to sit through everyone else's performance you owe us the courtesy-NO! Decency! To listen to ours until it ends. Many of you may not understand why this upsets me the way that it does. I can hear you saying, "Dames, it's just a performance. You need to build a bridge and get over it." As a matter of fact, I had Professor Cohen, one of our esteemeed conductors, tell me that I was acting "unreasonable and childish". Am I truly that childish because you cut us out of the runnings because you and several other teaching staff that I refuse to mention ignored our piece of the program?
Never once have I had the very gaul to storm out during a recital, performance, or practice. Today, I did and I feel no remorse for the action at all. Don't even get me started on Professor Pritchard and her %100 tactless remarks on my behaviour during Composition Studies. I came to this school for an education in musical studies and performace. However, I did not come here to be ignored and tossed out like meaningless garbage upon a dirty kitchen floor. When have any of my close friends known me to act in such a way that would be considered as "lewd conduct"? Thank you, Sarah, I'll tell you: Never. The only person that will hear out my story is Professor Gallery, of course a fellow guitar player anyway.
This entire situation is irritating to me. Why am I putting 'my all' into the Harmonix anyway? Is it just because they needed another tenor? There are tenors all over this college. There must have been a particular reason why they wanted to acquire me first. Is it the publicity of having Damien Kanzali on their list or is it the fact that I have the ability to be considered an asset to this acapella group? If the reason is just because my name is a recognisable factor to the masses, then I don't want to be a part of this any longer. At this point I'm not sure what I'm planning on doing to fix my current situation.
I almost forgot; thank you for making my icon for me ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.2) skittlesama. I really enjoy my green one for Viridity, but it's nice to have one that has a little bit of me in it. |
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| Whomever |
[Dec. 9th, 2003|10:25 am] |
| [ | Currently: |
| |  restless | ] |
Please don't be angry with me because you understand how I feel about the way that you perform things in your daily life, skittlesama, however I need to tell you this because I think that you need to hear it come from me.
From what I've heard through the grapevine, you've changed into a whole different person. You're right, I hope you realise, that people change in their lives as they begin to grow up and you definitely understand that I did after all the things in my life happened to me. Yet try to understand their point of view. I think that they think that they're losing a friend because maybe, just maybe, they are feeling left behind. Remember that friends stick together and don't leave any man (or woman) behind in the battle.
All of your choices are strictly up to you and no one else, but I beg of you to please take them into consideration. I know and understand that you're in love with someone dear to you and don't forget that I've been through the same thing. It's changed me for the better and if you are changing, then I hope he's changing you into a better person too. |
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| For You |
[Oct. 9th, 2003|02:59 am] |
| [ | Currently: |
| |  sympathetic | ] |
Rachel, I know that you've been having a difficult time with yourself at the moment. I'm sorry I haven't been around to tell you everything will be okay and I truly apologize.
I understand what it is like to lose something important to you. Recall for a moment what it is that I've been through and find strength in what you cannot at this time see. Time heals all wounds; you should know that because I know that you're strong. And even though some may not find it within themselves to listen to the beating of your heart, you have friends that will. And we will be here for you always.
I can only hope that these words will help you through your loss:
It all went far too quickly when
You started your romance.
You both headed for the Broadway stage
Before you learned to dance.
Naturally, you shared the fear
Of being on a limb,
And scared to stay while loath to part,
You felt your feelings dim.
Well, now you're separate,
And will be for a while.
And then you can try again, for love
Remembers the sweetest smile.
But this time why not go slow and ask,
Before you go to bed,
If you both might try some artful grace
And dance awhile instead. |
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| Apologies |
[Sep. 16th, 2003|01:05 pm] |
| [ | Currently: |
| | melancholy | ] |
Maybe it's that I'm too quick to jump at everyone around me. This is all unfamiliar territory and I'm issuing an apology. I can't tell you enough.
It isn't like me to act this way; angry and outspoken. I'm kind and quiet. It's all wrong now. What am I to do? Who do I have for lashing out at everyone? I have absolutely no one to stand by me now. So I want to go home............or am I already home......? |
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| Why? |
[Sep. 8th, 2003|07:22 pm] |
| [ | Currently: |
| | infuriated | ] |
| [ | Song of choice: |
| | "Pretending" by Power Boost | ] |
I'm tired of everyone believing that just because I am who I am, that gives them all the rights in the entire world to walk over me like a stepping stool. A mere tool for their gain. I'm nobody's tool. Fuck you! You stole the rights to my music and lyrics to call them your own and for one reason or another you come up with the very gaul to tell me that me of all people, "Don't have the balls to do anything about it?"
To the very gates of Hell to you. I have slaved over these songs; putting my own heart and soul into them so that you can suddenly rip them away from me? God gave me this voice and talent for my own personal purposes and to have you insult me, take it all away from me, and then fist fight me, it is suddenly believed that I won't fight for me beliefs? I'm sorry to hear that you don't possess the same determination inside of you as I do inside of me. I hold this single, individual pack of ice to my face in hopes that the swelling and bleeding will stop.
It's been discovered that even my friends alone will not stand for me on this and I'm not exactly sure how I should react to this realization. To the best of my knowledge, I truly thought that friends were supposed to support you and stick with you through even the most difficult of times. It looks like I was wrong because now it only seems that all friends have done for me are drag me down and suck off the leftovers of me success. I'm here to tell you all that if you want success, you'll be doing it alone. It's good for you to hear that and suck down that bitter pill alone. You're no longer obtaining water from me.
These physical wounds will heal, but the others will stay so deeply rooted inside this heart that I will always hate you all from now on. Expect no help from me and in turn I want none from you. You can all keep your advice as well. Where has it gotten me? Has it pushed me forward and ahead in my music career? No, I'm afraid. It hasn't. I'm done listening to those who don't know me. In all honesty, I'm sure that they really could feel anything for me or give a damn about what I am or where I am. These phantom friendships are no longer because now I'm cutting the ties. If I want to date someone, I'll do so. If I want to sleep with someone, I'll do so. If I want to write a song, I'll do so without a mere second of hesitation to look back on all of you who would jump at the second I gave you leeway to do so and take everything in my life that's important to me.
Why don't you kill me off a little bit more than you already have. What else do I have to lose? You've all taken away everything else, so why not the one thing in my life that I can always and forever call my own? My music. So I'm sure that I'll see you again someday..........maybe. |
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| That Flavor |
[Jun. 6th, 2003|01:23 am] |
| [ | Currently: |
| | horny | ] |
| [ | Song of choice: |
| | "Chocolate Makes Me Want You" by The Black Trackers | ] |
I feel as if I haven't been spending quite enough time on this journal, but seeing as classes are now out for the year, I'm considering visiting home this summer. I'm not sure yet if that's what I'll do, but I suppose we'll have to see where things go. I do miss seeing my friends from highschool since we've all gone our seperate ways. Not to mention the additional friends of Rach's that I never got to meet when I was with her.
There's a building downtown here that's in the direct middle of a lot of interesting places; food joints, stores, there's an old arcade, a few other things. It's been owned a few different times, but the businesses that owned it weren't able to keep a full running time on it and usually resulted in bankruptcy. I decided that I'd look up some information on it and see the reasons on why it always had trouble keeping up-to-date with issues. Come to discover that it's mostly due to the lack of space in that area............cars in particular don't have a very large area to park in and spaces to do so are extremely limited.
I'm pondering if I should look around for someone my age in the area who would be interested in helping me maintain that building and possibly devlop it into something like the club that I perform at now. There are plenty of clubs and such that are available, but the age restriction is a severe problem. The Rock House's target audience is mostly college students and adults. I find there aren't many places for both college and elementary college students to go together. What if a place like that were to be created?
Just some small things to think about. |
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| Perhaps It Is True |
[May. 9th, 2003|10:26 pm] |
| [ | Currently: |
| | happy | ] |
..........am I in love again?
Do I dare?
My heart is drenched with many feelings.
All conspiring together to corrupt my heart.
Too easily fallen.
But loving every minute.
I see you.
You don't see me.
Just another single college tragedy
In the life of one boy and
One Girl.
I just wish that
I only had the courage to say it all.
I fear you, younger than I,
For what will become of a relationship untold
In the storybook of time? |
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